Prayer Life

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed it be thy name

Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth

As it is in Heaven

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us

And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.  Amen

I say this every night, and then I talk to God.  I tell Him about my day, how I felt and I thank Him for everything He has done for me, is doing for me and will do for me.  It comes easy to me.  It wasn't always that way.  I used to think that God despised me, so He didn't listen to me.  I had it all wrong.  I thought He had turned his back on me, but it was me who turned my back on Him.

I have learned in the past 2 years that God has always been there, waiting for me.  He had his arms open wide for me, like a father welcoming home his children.  I am His child, made in His own image.  He did welcome me home.  When I was broken, bruised and weeping, He welcomed me. He told me not to cry anymore, that everything would be okay.  All I needed to do is trust Him.  God then held out His hand to me, and I took it.  I told Him I had nothing to give but my love.  He said that was all he ever wanted.

God's love is free.  It comes without restrictions.  We only need to live together as one people, love one another, and love Him.  That does not seem like too much to me.  Of course, if you are the type of person who spreads nothing but messages of hate and destruction, then you are on the side of the enemy.

It is easy to become saved.  All you need to do is proclaim the Jesus Christ is the son of God and is your Lord and Savior.  Then comes the hard part.  It's just like gardening.  Once the seed had been sown, it needs to be nourished, weeded, watered and tilled.  That is hard work.  Plus, once the devil sees that you have pledged your life to Christ, he works that much harder against you.  That's why it is important to pray often, read your bible, attend worship services, and repent your sins.  

Just as important, you must change your life if it puts you in the path of sin.  You may have to say goodbye to some old friends and family members who will do and say whatever they can to make you stay with them.  Men are weak hearted, so often we give into temptation.  But, you must fight this temptation with the word of the Lord.  People will soon see you are serious and will leave you alone.

Although it sometimes feels like it, we are never alone.  Jesus is always with you, fighting the fight with you, struggling with you and comforting you.  I had forgotten that, so I struggled with my bipolar by myself.  I couldn't do it.  On 3 occasions, I turned away from God and was ready to hand myself over to Satan.  Each time God woke me up, saving my life.  

I never really learned how to pray, until I just thought I would keep it simple. I will pray the Our Father, and then just talk to God.  He gave me the words to say, some of them incoherent because I was crying, but still, God knows what is in my heart always.

He can do it for everyone.  It's easy really.  Reading the bible can be a challenge.  I would recommend a new revised American bible instead of the King James, which with it's thous, thees and yea verily can be quite cumbersome.  I have a catholic study bible that has reading guides so that I can truly understand what I am reading.  It has become part of my daily routine. It really feeds my spirit. I feel lost without it.  

What is my prayer tonight?  Thanksgiving for a peaceful and productive day, no anxiety, no more pain, no more fatigue, the food I ate.  Prayers for peace in my heart and mind and around the world. prayers for my family.  A special prayer for a financial blessing, and I will ask Him to to watch over me as I sleep, granting a deep restful sleep without nightmares or anxiety.  Finally, I will ask for the energy to face tomorrow no matter what comes.  Amen