Bone Tired: Part 2

Well, I got some relief, but not from my doctor.   It was through prayer to God the Father Almighty.  Last night I prayed that he remove the pain from my bones, and the fatigue from my body.  This morning I woke up refreshed in spirit of mind and relieved in body.  Can I get an Amen?!!

I was once one of those who did not believe in the power of prayer, but I can tell you, if it were not for the prayers of a lot of people, myself included, I would not be here.  My hands still hurt, but my large bones and joints are no longer aching.  I did contact my doctor and we are halving the dose of the medication. 

Today has been a day of ups and downs. I don't really feel like myself.  I feel like I'm outside of myself watching myself going through the motions of my day. It's a very strange feeling, not one I like.  It usually means that an anxiety attack is looming, when I feel this disconnected.  But I don't feel anxious about anything.  I guess that's a trick of the disease, hits you when you're not looking. 

I haven't been able to watch TV for 3 weeks.  I watch Netflix in bed every night but I don't look at them as the same thing.  Mainly I watch Everybody Loves Raymond.  It helps clear out the days troubles.  It's harmless and doesn't contain anything nightmare worthy.  I watch it after I take my medicine.  2 or 3 episodes and I'm out for the night.  Tonight though, I am surprisingly alert. I don't know.  I have an appointment with Mary on Thursday, that will be good.  Mary is my therapist. She is totally awesome.  She really listens to me, and reads my body language quite well. 

I think I will make myself some cookies and milk.  Then I'll go to bed.  Tomorrow is a reading day.  I am currently reading The Fellowship of the Ring.  I just finished The Hobbit.  I thought it was quite good.  The movies did a good job with it.  I get all my books at the library.  The library is a fabulous place, everyone should go there.  I think I may write a book one day.  It will be based on my alter ego. Her name is Babe Hawthorne.  I'll have to tell you something about her. But not tonight.  Let's just say she is everything I am not, or does the things that I want to do but am too chickenshit to try.