My ass is killing me. I'm out of hydrocodone. All I have are muscle relaxants. I took one, but I'm going to take another. My leg is spasming. I can't wait until I'm not in pain anymore. It was suppose to stop with the fusion of my sacroiliac. But I had the surgery on the 1st, and so far it still hurts. At times, like right now, it hurts worse than it did before. It's keeping me up. After sitting all day, I'm getting butt and right leg spasms at night. I get off at 8 pm. Right after I sign out, I walk the dog. That helps get movement into my hip and leg, but for some reason, tonight my ankle was swollen. God knows I drank enough water, so I don't know why it swelled.
Today started off well enough for a Monday. I hated getting up. I slept on the couch last night because of my back, so I woke up at 6 pm when April went into the bathroom. I tried to go back to sleep but the cats get up with her, because she feeds them before she leaves the house. I just gave up and got up. It was a pretty slow day, which you would think was good. However, my job is not that exciting, so when it's slow I get bored. Anyway, I applied for 5-6 jobs today. I had a good reason to start looking again.
I had decided that when I went back to work after my leave of absence that I was going to really apply myself to my job and get my promotion and raise in salary. I was quite happy when I went back to work. I had spoken with my supervisor and found out that I was not going back to my team, but was being transferred to a new team. There was also 2 promises to me. First, I was going to get a new schedule for earlier start time and end. I wasn't going to have to work 11:15 to 8 pm. Secondly, I was told that I would be placed in the next level 2 training class.
Today, a shift bid opened up until 5/23. I tried to do my shift bid, but wasn't able to because for some reason I was still in training mode. At least that's what I thought. I asked my supervisor about it, and he told me that I would qualify for this shift bid because of my leave of absence. So, I would be keeping my current schedule. Um, HELL NO!! Wrong answer. I reminded him of the promises that were made to me when I returned from leave and told him to check into it. He said he would. Hence, my new job seeking adventures today. Because, if I don't get what I want, namely better hours and more money I will need to leave Delta Dental.
I thought that I did something good for myself. I stood up for myself, and was taking the necessary steps to provide a better life for myself. I'm forced to really because my social security benefits were cut off this month. They had the nerve to request an overpayment refund. I politely told them to kiss my black ass. At any rate, I told April and Erica about the shift bid debacle and job search. I was expecting some support, but got none. They both were like, "Why?" My sister has a tendency to dismiss things I do for myself when it comes to jobs. She thinks I should stay at Delta for the rest of my life no matter what. I'm not like that. If I'm unhappy at a job, I'm leaving. My mental health is more important than a damn paycheck.
Since they cut off my social security, I had to crunch the numbers again to discover I have barely enough money to get by. I make approximately $2670 per month. My expenses total around $2500. That's not including food and gas. Some how, I'm supposed to pay everything minus the $1758 I was receiving. So, I either need a raise, a part-time job, or a new job. I've increased my hourly pay requirement to $21.10. I'm trying to find a job for $40,500 per year. I can live nicely on that amount. A level 2 promotion would do it. I had been requesting $40,000 per year, but I decided I was worth more.
I got a new therapist. My first appointment with her is Saturday at 1 pm. My other therapist was nice enough, but I could afford to go. I can afford therapy now because I met my out of pocket for my insurance, so the rest of the year is zero cost. I can't believe I met it for the 3rd year in a row. I got stop falling apart. Next thing I need to look at getting fixed is my left knee. It is so stiff and hurts when I bend it. I need to get some compression socks. All this sitting is bad for my legs. I try to get up once an hour to move around. I need to start walking or something in the morning. Maybe I'll try some yoga. I can find something on YouTube. We have yoga mats and bricks. I think I will start doing that instead of napping on the couch in the morning. I really need to do something to strengthen and get toned. I'd like to get to a size 12. Plus, I really just need to stretch and restore some of my flexibility.
Well, I guess I'll try to get some sleep. I wrote letter to 2 pen pals today. have to go to the post office tomorrow to mail Shayla her graduation card. It's a really big popup card with a bouquet of roses. Well that's it. off to bed. Wish me luck.
Peace, Joy, Love - Queen B
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