Happy Birthday to Me!!!! It's not truly my birthday until 1 pm this afternoon. That's what time I was born. But today is the big day!! I am 55 years old. Quite frankly, it's been a long strange trip.
If I am completely honest with you, I have lived 10 years longer than I ever imagined. I had always thought I would die by the time I was 45. I don't know why. I do know that's how far my childish imagination took me.
I used to think that I would marry in my 20's, have 4 children, and die some tragic movie-like death. But, alas, I have never married or had children. I will probably outlive my entire family and be an old woman surrounded by animals. Which is not a bad thought, as long as I don't die alone, and my animals end up eating me!
I do have a boyfriend though. I am still with Tony. No, we still have not had our first encounter yet. But, I am trying to talk him into creating a bubble with me, so we can stay safe while being together. I sometimes do experience doubts about him, and if he really is serious about me. I mean we just text, he never calls, and when I call him, I get no answer and he doesn't have voicemail.
Zelda is my present to myself. She is 1.5 pounds of joy. It's so nice to have a living thing to love and take care of. I just found her on the top shelf of my closet. Her favorite thing to do is climb. I'm going to have to keep a close eye on her, stink bug!!
This is my first birthday without Mom. I feel kind of sad about it, but it's not triggering any type of depression. I found a couple of photo albums and there are some old pictures of her. She was so pretty.
I am officially elderly I think. I qualify for all kinds of senior discounts. I'm trying to start off this week with a new will, and attitude. I want to push myself to succeed. Ok, maybe succeed is a strong word. I want to push myself to not give up. I want to keep going.
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