I do not watch the news, even the local news I ignore. There is always a body found, someone shot, a building exploding, traffic accidents, and police violence. I only watch the news to get the weather report. Then, I retreat back to the confines of my room or to the porch. Does this make me one of the uninformed, ignorant public? I guess so, but watching the news fills me with anxiety, anger and sadness.
Quite frankly, I cannot wait for the election season to be over. Watching Hillary and especially Donald, fills me with so much disgust, that I am thinking of doing a write-in vote. We are the laughingstock of the world right now. Do we really want a bullying, petulant, hate monger like Trump to be the leader of the free world? Or should we vote for a more composed, professional, capable, but a liar like Hillary into office? I would rather see Hillary. She is a liar, but then so are all politicians. They all bend the truth to suit their agenda.
Where are the Jefferson Smith's as so aptly portrayed by James Stewart in "Mr. Smith Goes to Washington"? Where are the spitfires who promise and do make real political change? Everybody just makes promises to end hunger in America, help the homeless, cure cancer, protect our troops and secure our borders and end violence, but no one really does anything about it! Our children are still going to school hungry, families are still trying to make ends meet, and Big Pharma is still doing a booming business.
Besides, I have other things to worry about. For instance, my mom is in pain. She has been in pain for over a week. I am taking her to the doctor tomorrow as a walk-in because she can't get an appointment until next week. I am worried that it may be something serious, like a blood clot. Maybe it's my anxiety at work, but I keep on the lookout for signs of a stroke or heart attack. I am also worried about my dad. Here it is in the middle of summer and he is complaining that he sometimes feels a chill in the air. Is he having difficulty regulating his body temperature? I know that comes with age, but still I am worried. I am going out to visit him in December to celebrate his birthday, Christmas and New Year's with him again. I know he has people looking out for him, but I am his blood and would drop everything at once if he needed care.
I wish I could win the lottery, so I could build a house big enough for both of them. One in a suite on one side of the house and the other in a suite on the other side. I wish I could buy a whole street of houses to have all my family together, it would be like the Kennedy compound. It's an old dream, fed by fear of abandonment. I want to take care of everybody, so we could all be happy, and in turn I would have a real sense of security.
Oh well, there is a passage in the bible that says do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. I need to remember that, because tomorrow is not promised. With my being fat, a diabetic, and a smoker, tomorrow is really not promised to me. But, I have always seem my smoking as a slow form of suicide. I know full well what I am doing to myself. I am not stupid. I am naive, but not stupid. I know I should probably be outside walking right now. It would improve my mood, aid in digestion, and get the blood pumping to my brain as well as burning calories. But, at present, I am afraid of people and the outdoors. You never know who's out there.
That's another reason I don't watch the news. People getting ambushed on the street, beaten and robbed. People just walking by, or worse yet, standing there filming it instead of trying to help.
I don't want to be a statistic, but I already am. Yet, I don't want it on screen as breaking news.
So, do I live in ignorant bliss? No, not really. I can still hear the news through my bedroom door.
I just choose not to watch it. If I really want to tune out, I plug into Pandora and listen to Christmas music. That always make me feel better. I takes me back to times more innocent and to a safer place. Isn't that what we all want, to live in a safer place? Call me naive again, but I believe the world can get there again. Only by moving forward in love.
Peace, Joy, Love - B
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