Help Me O God!!

Woe is me!! How long, O God must I endure these afflictions!?  I seek comfort in you, but cannot find You.  I wish to take shelter, but can find no refuge.  I pray to You, but cannot find the words that You might hear me.  Look into my heart and see my despair.  Look into my mind and see the whirling dervish of doubt and confusion.  I only took my eyes off of You for a moment, and in that moment I became lost.  Please light my path back to You! Lord, you said a good shepherd will leave the 99 sheep in his flock to go and find the one that is lost.  I am right here! Come for me, I beseech Thee!
I am so tired of the ups and downs, the great peaks and deep valleys of bipolar.  Each day is unknown.  Each minute a question.  I beg of you to make it stop.  One moment, I am happy.  The next moment besieged by fears so deep it makes me question my existence.
I do not cry often, but when I do, it is like a river overflowing.  The voices of the demons tell me that you do not love me.  I know that they are lies and I rebuke them.  But, when they whisper day after day, I begin to doubt and my heart is filled with sorrow.
I want to live Your truth, O Lord!  I want to be filled with Your Spirit and everlasting love!  Help me, Father!  Remove these chains from my heart and lighten my burdens.  Let me know that you have heard my cries.  Help me!  Please Help me!!  I love You.
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