I have not had sex in 9 years. In March of 2017, it will be 10 years. Does that make me an honorary virgin again? I'm thinking yeah, it does. What happened? I don't even masturbate. I used to. That was until last year when I found out it was a sin. I'm catholic now, so I can't do it anymore. If I do, I have to go to confession so I can do my penance in order to receive Holy Communion.
The whole thing about sex, is that God meant sex to take place between a man and woman to unite their spirits in the image of the Holy Trinity. Sure, he made it pleasurable too. Sex is a good thing, but it was meant for procreation, not recreation. If you take God out of sex then it is an abomination of the whole idea, making it a sin.
That's why masturbation is a sin, there is no God in it. Same for homosexuality. God made man and women to complement each other. One to give the seed of life, the other to receive it. God did not make it for two men or women, again the idea is to procreate in the unity of the Holy Trinity.
I have nothing against homosexuals personally. I don't care who you are having sex with, but if you are a God fearing Christian, you put your soul in danger every time you have sex. I know that gay people did not chose to be gay, any more than I chose to have bipolar. That's one of the reasons why it was once thought to be a mental illness. It's not anymore. It just is.
The catholic Church is also against invitro-fertilization, because children are being created outside of the womb, again removing God from the process. I know there are a lot of couples that struggle with fertility issues and this is often the way they go, but it is unnatural. I don't know if it's a sin or not.
I am 50 years old, my womb is closed. What's the point of me getting married if I can't have children? That's something I've been thinking about a lot lately. Will I be having sex just for pleasure? Is that allowed? But, I guess if God can open the wombs of Sarah, Rachel and Elizabeth, he could do it for me.
Maybe, I'm not supposed to have a baby given all that's wrong with me. The post-partum depression scares me the most. What if it becomes so severe that I become psychotic. No, I think adoption of some school aged siblings would be the way to go.
My medication and age have decreased my libido to such an extent that I find it difficult to get horny. When I had a period, I could always tell I was ovulating just by my sex drive. It was insatiable. I'd get wet at the slightest thing. I had sex dreams. I masturbated a lot then.
Some women get sex toys, but I never saw the need for one. direct clitoral stimulation was all I needed. Dildos and the like I didn't use. I just needed one big orgasm, and I was satisfied. Fell right to sleep. I went out with one guy who just could understand that I didn't need multiple orgasms. If you do it right, I explained I had one toe curling uterine contracting orgasm that would satisfy me just fine.
I guess if I ever meet the right guy, I'll talk to my doctor about the sexual side effects about my medication and try to get the juices flowing again. In the meantime, I'll have to stick with prayer.
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