Well, I remember a little about my last post. I think I was much more optimistic about things, but as usual things hit the crapper. I wrote back in June, when I made a sincere commitment to pursue some kind of acting career or work better at my job, but that never came to fruition. My fear of the world continues and I still haven't gone to church, taken any acting lessons, or art lessons.
Here it is the end of the year, and I have accomplished nothing. I was in the hospital for rotator cuff surgery. I'm still in physical therapy. I hate every minute of it. My shoulder still hurts but that's just the story of my life. My leg hurts from 2012.
I also had another bout of hyperglycemia. My sugar was up near 1000. I was in critical condition for 4 days. I was incontinent for 2 weeks. I hate having diabetes. I hate having bipolar. My depression is steady on the track.
I have no motivation, no sense of belonging, nothing wanted or desired. So, I will Wish you Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I'm going to sign off for now, and maybe check in with my wishes for the New Year.
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