Ok, So this isn't about anything in particular. I suppose you can say it's a rant. I'm just venting. Although, I must admit, there is a bit of paranoia slipping in again. This weekend, I did a lot of cleaning. Which is something I normally don't mind. But, I am getting a little tired of being the only one who does it.
April and Erica spend most of their time on the goddamn TikTok and talking about stupid shit. My sister literally sits on the couch all weekend, unless we go out somewhere. Yesterday morning, I got up cleaned the kitty litter, took my car in for service, and went to Walmart. These 2 clowns were still in there pajamas. Okay, Erica was wearing clothes, but that's only because I didn't take the dog out before I left. I had time to do it, and feed them but I was like, fuck it, I ain't doing it. Let them do their own shit.
I usually do things on the weekend because I tell myself that they are tired from working all week. But, stop, wait a fucking goddamn minute. I work too! Nobody makes a move to make things easier for me. The only thing April does on the weekend is make Sunday breakfast. But guess who cleans up the fucking kitchen? Me!!!! If I don't do, it will sit there all damn day.
I just finished sweeping the floor, because no one else does it. I know this apartment isn't all that great, but still, I would like it to look presentable. I even took the time to put a few decorations on my side of the bedroom. I just want it to be cheerful, is that a fucking crime. No, but those 2 would rather wallow in the fact that we live in a very small apartment, and they don't have the old place anymore. We'll be here a year in October, and I would love to move to a bigger place, but I don't know if that's going to happen. I'm still trying to save money. I finally figured out how to pay my bills and have some spending money, but they only think about themselves 99% of the time.
Yesterday, after we went shopping, we went for brunch. I paid for it. Did those 2 even mention giving me money for it? Of course not. Later, when it was time for dinner, they ordered out. Did anyone ask me if I wanted anything? Well, for fuck sake, that would be too much like right! I had a grilled cheese sandwich. Not that I wanted tacos anyway, but Jesus H. Christ, at least ask me.
Times like this, I feel like, just get the fuck out, I pay the rent, electricity and car insurance. I can certainly afford to live on my own. I even buy my own food. Sometimes, I even pay for their food. I get $600 measly from them for rent. It should be more like $800-900 but I just let it go. It seems like whenever I ask a question or make an observation, April looks at me with utter disdain. Sometimes, I want to punch her smack in her face. Erica is just as selfish. Although, she does buy me Starbucks when I take her to work.
Then there's the fact that neither Erica or her brother talk to me about anything going on in their lives, which really pisses me off because I was more like a mom to them when they were growing up. But fuck it, fuck them, fuck it all. I'm done
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