Well, 2022 has reared it's ugly head on the world. It promises nothing. I suppose that we can expect the trend of death, poverty and despair to reign over the world for another 12 months. I, however, am feeling positive.
Why? Because I have decided that this is the year that something big is going to happen. I'm not sure exactly what that will be, but I am determined not to go out of 2022 the same way I ended last year.
I got in touch with a charity for rental assistance and was approved for 2 months of help. I also applied for food stamps. However, because I have a car, I only qualified for, are you ready for this? Fucking $20. That's it. I guess I can buy a few things, but I ain't getting nothing good.
I have a job interview on Monday with a local vet hospital. It's a hospital that is part of a big organization, so I should be able to get the pay and benefits I want. I hope I get. I want to get out of this house and go to a job. A year at home is quite enough thank you.
I still haven't told Amazon I'm not coming back. I see the doctor on the 5th, so I'll tell them then. Regardless of whether I get this job on Monday, I can't go back. My ankle is permanently damaged.
We rang in the new year with some friends here at home. We played board games, drank and shot of fireworks at midnight. Everything broke up at 1:30 am. I'm so glad I'm over my "oh my God, I gotta go to a party" phase of life. I just don't give a shit about that stuff anymore. I'm quite happy spending time watching old movies and cuddling with Zelda. She loved the fireworks by the way.
I started chatting online with a guy a week ago. I'm not taking that seriously. He sounds fishy. Plus, he supposedly lives in Miami and is going to France for 3 months. Whatever dude. I reply to him if I feel in the mood. I'm not putting up with any bullshit from guys this year. I want a real gentleman, with a good job, who is looking for a committed relationship. Anything else, keep on steppin".
Guess who called me a couple of weeks ago? Kevin!!!! I was like, what the hell do you want. But, he just called to say hi I guess. As usual, he said he would call me later, but he never did. I didn't call him. He was still spouting the same crap as before. He still is a hobosexual. I wish him nothing but the best, but this girl ain't biting at that hook again. Once I stop and think about it, the sex was only mediocre.
I am thinking about getting a lover just for sex purposes. Kinda like what I had with Brad, except with a little more fun. I would like to go out once in while as friends. We can just be friends who fuck regularly. Is there such a thing?
I suppose I sound a little harsh, but I've had my heart open for several years now, putting other people before myself. I'm not doing that anymore. 2022 is the year of selfcare. If you can't deal with the fact that I am the most important person in my life, then I have no place for you. If you want to join me on my journey, by all means, climb aboard!!
Am I making resolutions? Nope, don't believe in them. I'm going to focus on some goals. The first goal is to improve my financial situation. Once I do that, I am going to travel a little. I've never been to Savannah, Las Vegas, or Washington, DC. I've only been to New Orleans once. I'd like to go back. Hopefully, this COVID shit will calm down or possible be eradicated and people will be okay again. I doubt it, but I'm praying. Speaking of praying, that is another goal. I need to get back in touch with my spiritual side. I've been lax in that area. I'm also going to really concentrate on letting go of my creativity. Once the finances are straightened out, I want to take an art class. I don't care what kind at this point. I started taking Spanish lessons. It's pretty fun. I have to make a commitment to it.
Well, I guess that's it. I'm going to make a list of these goals. I don't have to do them all this year, just the financial one. Everything else will fall into place after that. So it's a New Year. On the 6th, it will be a year since my dad died. I'm not sad. I was a little melancholy on his birthday, Dec. 21st. But, it was a good day. We'll see what happens next week. Maybe my goal will be met. In fact, I claim it in Jesus's name. I am financially secure and my family doesn't need anything else for the rest of our lives. We are living life like it's golden!!
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