Sketches of a Bipolar Girl: Hey God

Hey God! Yeah, I'm taking to you.  All I want to know is why.  Why don't you hear me? Why don't you do something to help me and my family?  Yeah, I know I haven't been praying or going to mass like I should, but that quite frankly is your fault. I have come to you in deep sorrow, panic, humility and love.  I have prayed to you for things that are needed, yet still I hear nothing, I see nothing.  Are you really there or are you just a myth made from the minds of men in order to control people.  I am not so sure anymore. I am tired of crying, begging and pleading for you to help me. It is said that you help people in your own time.  Well, I've been waiting for 30 years.  When is it my turn? Where is my breakthrough?  I am so angry with you right now, I can hardly stand it.  All I want is a well paying job that will allow me to support myself and help my family.  I ask for blessings, you throw rocks. I'm not asking you to perform a miracle. I'm just asking for help!!! PLEASE