It's been a while since my last blog. I've been feeling a little lost. My classes are over and I did well. I got an A in both classes. I'm in Michigan at my dad's house. I thought I would feel better once I got out of South Carolina for a while, but I don't. I've been sleeping a lot and isolating myself in the guest room. Even the dog has failed to pick up my spirits.
I wrote out a proposal for my mom and aunt to get a cat and left it for them to read while I'm gone. I attached articles about the benefit of having a pet, especially for the mentally ill. I hope it gets approved. Anyway, I guess you're wondering why I had to go to such lengths. I really don't know. All I know is that I need something to love. I need to give affection and love to another living thing. I've already given in to having a dog. But a cat doesn't need to be walked. Don't get me wrong, I know a cat is just as much responsibility as a dog. But, a cat can pretty much entertain himself.
I am looking for an older cat, loving,affectionate, and likes to cuddle. Plus, I want it to sleep with me. She/he will have access to the main living area during the day, but the litter box, food and water would be in my room. That way she won't have to wander around the apartment at night.
All in all, I'd have to say 2016 was a successful year. I completed a year of school, lost 55 pounds, and joined the catholic church. There are somethings that didn't happen; I didn't find any friends to hang out with, I didn't meet my special someone. I guess there is just something about me that sends out a desperation pheromone. I have my family, but it is not enough. I am lonely. I am hungry for companionship. I don't know what to do. I am looking forward to next year, maybe things will be different. Maybe, I will make friends, and go on a date. Maybe my classes will be exciting. I will continue my healthy eating plan, and lose another 35 pounds. I wish I loved myself today. Right now, I am full of self doubt, and anxiety. Maybe I will feel better after lunch, anyway that's all for now. I wish I had something more exciting to talk about. Until then, Peace, Joy, Love - B
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